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Created on 2004-04-22 11:46:50 (#2916641), last updated 2007-04-25
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Basic Info| Name: | inneedofwings |
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| Birthdate: | 06-04 |
| Location: | Pulaski, Tennessee, United States |
BioI am... well... human. Something and someone that I hate... I am me... crazy, tormemted, and alone, doomed to wonder this earth aimlessly in search of my purpose. I'm beginning to believe that if I have a purpose at all it is merely to serve as the world's punching bag... a scapegoat for the world's frustrations and anger. I am alone... as alone as any one person can be... and yet I'm surrounded by "friends"... "family"... those who are suppose to care, but care not. My life has been, and is a worthless venture. I have helped no one, and have only hurt those I love... but for some reason I keep on going... I continue to feed myself, bathe, and otherwise sustain my life... though I hate it.
I have spent my whole life trying to make everyone around me happy and ignoring myself and my own needs... only to be called selfish on those rare occasions that I stand up for myself or do something for me. My childhood was spent trying to earn love from my parents and living in the shadow of my brother whom my mom loved so much more than me. I am always treated as one of two things... a prodigy, or a waste of human flesh... theres no happy medium for me ... no one looks at me as human... as just like them...
All I want out of this horrible existence is to help someone... anyone. I want only to be there for someone like no one is ever there for me. I don't want anyone else to ever feel this lonely and worthless. I want to make a difference... I want to impact the world... in a good way. How can I though, I am 19, ignorant, and uneducated... stupid. I have no skills and nothing to offer anyone.
I have spent my whole life trying to make everyone around me happy and ignoring myself and my own needs... only to be called selfish on those rare occasions that I stand up for myself or do something for me. My childhood was spent trying to earn love from my parents and living in the shadow of my brother whom my mom loved so much more than me. I am always treated as one of two things... a prodigy, or a waste of human flesh... theres no happy medium for me ... no one looks at me as human... as just like them...
All I want out of this horrible existence is to help someone... anyone. I want only to be there for someone like no one is ever there for me. I don't want anyone else to ever feel this lonely and worthless. I want to make a difference... I want to impact the world... in a good way. How can I though, I am 19, ignorant, and uneducated... stupid. I have no skills and nothing to offer anyone.
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